I consider myself to be pretty solid. I've gotten a bit callus living in Africa for the past 4 years. Things that used to rattle me no longer touch a nerve. I've realized that sometimes you just have to deal with it.
Case in Point....
The car elevator (or "lift" if you are British or South African). My in-laws have an apartment that features this death trap and I used to get nervous just thinking about it. I typically park far away on street parking, but my husband uses it like a champ.
Once we get close, I start to feel super nervous and sweaty. Pulling into the elevator is another story, and typically I just close my eyes. I feel like there are too many things that can go wrong. Once your inside and the doors close, I also freak out. What if you get stuck? Finally, once you start to move, and soon enough its over. Thank the Lord. Even though I'm still a nervous wreak, it gets easier each time.
I also helps that once you get out of the car you are in one of the most amazing spots in Cape Town. 60 seconds of terror suddenly seem worth it once you step outside on the desk. Hello Beautiful!
When we returned home from our time in the states, I noticed that we had a new addition. Can you spot her?
Yes, HUGE! The black blob on the right is a good sized bee, so that is a good comparison for size. I walk under this web multiple times per day and always look for her. Yes, she freaks me out, but as long as she stays there and I can see her, I'm fine.
The day that I can't find her...there is going to be trouble. As much as I am a little weary of this massive web and HUGE spider, I cannot bring myself to kill it or attempt to move the web. She's not hurting me, so I'm not going to hurt her. I hope this breeds some sort of good animal karma.
I usually have no problem downing a green frosty mix, but lately it's been a struggle. My solution? Berries! I have to admit, brown is not much more appealing than green, but for some reason the smell and the texture is far easier for me to handle. I love the taste, but when I am blending it all together, the appearance can put me off.
If you haven't tried spinach in your smoothies or protein shakes, I highly recommend it. Start small and work your way up to a couple handfuls. Frozen spinach also works like a charm.
Fears you have faced lately?
Do you feel like you are growing up? Looking back, I guess I can handle a lot more than I used to. Little things used to shake me. Even though I still feel like me, I know that every experience shapes who I am and how I react in the future. I guess it's part of the process.