Since my trip to Mauritius, I have really cut back on my running. I thought that my fainting episode and getting stung by a wasp was a little reminder that I needed to give my body a break. On top of that, I have been having a little nagging pain in my left hip flexor that makes me nervous. The final cherry on top is that Chicago's winter weather is hectic and apparently I'm a delicate flower.
Sounds like excuses, right?
Although these are valid concerns, they are a little bit of a coping mechanism. When it comes down to it, I want to run a marathon and I'm scared. I'm scared of the training, I'm scared of being hungry all the time, I'm scared of injury, and I'm scared of crossing the finish line at a time that I find disappointing. Womp, womp...
All this going back and forth, excuses and self-doubt has been exhausting and I've been dealing with it by ignoring my running. I've found other ways to get my endorphin fix (hello spinning!) and I've been doing 1-2 shorter runs a week.
I recently shared my experience with The Magic and one of the very first exercises is committing to what you REALLY WANT and stating it in the present tense. Under the category of "Health & Fitness", I wrote I ran a marathon in 2013. Yep....I really want it.
Now that I've made the commitment with my mind, it's about time I sign up and start training, right? Still scared. Yep, scared as ever.
I don't expect the power of my mind to attract a magical fairy that is going to carry me effortlessly to the finish line without putting in the work, but I do expect for resources and inspiration to help me along the way.
Guess who received a little magic? This head case.
About 2 weeks ago, I received an email from Ryan Robert, the author of The Ultimate Beginner's Running Guide offering me a free version of his book to review. At first I didn't really think much of it, but now I'm half way through and I realized this is EXACTLY what I need. This book has been blowing my mind. I feel like I missed a huge part of my development as a runner because I had a pretty good fitness level and just decided to start running longer and longer on the treadmill. No form, no guidance, no inspiration, no advice. I initially ran for fitness, burning calories, and getting the most "bang for my buck" in terms of a workout, but somewhere along the journey, it became a love affair.
I vividly remember how much I loved training for my first half marathon. I was so committed and proud. One of my longest runs was during a fabulous weekend away at an upscale hotel and I diligently pounded out 1 hour and 45 minutes in the fitness center on the day we were flying home. My clothes were so sweaty that I had to wrap them in a towel from the hotel to pack them in my luggage. I felt like an athletic superstar with my stash of sweaty running clothes.
I want to have that level of commitment and fall in love with the process all over again.
|first half marathon, Feb 2011|
Today it started. I warmed up, I ran, I cooled down, I stretched, I drank water post run, I iced, and I've been taking a couple minutes of foam rolling couple hours. Guess what? My run was awesome and it left me wanting more.
- I'm finishing the book (slowly because I savor it)
- Finding a training plan
- Signing up for a marathon
- Putting aside my weird self-conscious issues surrounding running tights and buying some so I can run outside
- Getting new running shoes (I'm fairly certain mine have over 600 miles)
- Doing work.
I will do a complete review of the book once I'm finished, but I can confidently say it's amazing so far. I loved this:
"amazing and wonderful ways"....those words couldn't be more true (I should really write another post about what running has done for my mind and body)
Speaking of running inspiration....
Janae wrote a fantastic post titled "10 Things I wish I knew as a New Runner" I can totally relate to #1, #6, #9, and #10. I am still learning these things...
Liz wrote a post that got me all hot and bothered for the Chicago Marathon. Originally, I thought I was in a wedding in California that weekend, but it happens that the wedding is the weekend before, so that post is mighty tempting.
Why do you run? What inspires you during the rough times?